All alone in a crowded world.
Two orbs meet two.
No words spoken,
Face red heat.
I’m lost and held
In a moment
In a sea.
A sea that was your eyes.
As I was getting ready for work this morning, the Bible story about Elisha complaining to God about him being the only one in Israel who haven’t bowed to Baal came to me. What resounded in my head was God’s reply.
Yet I have left me seven thousand in Israel, all the knees which have not bowed unto Baal, and every mouth which hath not kissed him.
1 Kings 19:18
We live in a world where sometimes it seems like everyone is doing IT and we are the only ones not doing IT. This I admit can be pretty lonesome especially when we begin to feel pressured to do IT. What is the IT you ask? The IT is all the things you know you shouldn’t be doing for various reasons whether they are societal or personal reasons.
A year ago, I reached a place where I felt like I wasn’t growing. I felt like I wasn’t going anywhere. I felt stagnant. I had dreams and visions in mind but I saw no fit manner to achieve them. I was doing so much but I felt as though what I was reaching for was always just outside my reach and no matter how far I stretched, my aim always eluded me. I had grown stagnant in my professional, personal and spiritual life and this stagnancy sucked me in almost as though I was standing in quicksand.
It is strange but have you ever noticed that when you have worn out a plot of land, you have to leave it for another plot and give it time to recuperate? It is the same with life. Sometimes we have to leave our comfort zone, what is familiar to us, and move afar from the shore. I was just reading of how the disciples of Jesus left their comfort to pursue a ministry that was hard and it is for this that they are remembered, for this that they gained the greatest prize of all, salvation.
So, crazy me decided that instead of staying in my bed like a good little girl on a Sunday morning, I was up by 5:00 am and ready to do a 5K run at 6:15 am. I must say that I thought I would die especially since I chose to do the run instead of the walk.
Honestly, at times in the race, I did think I was dying. At one point I wanted to indicate to the Race team that I was stopping. My legs ached and my lungs felt short on air but the most important thing was that I maintained my pace even when I wanted to push myself to keep up with the people ahead of me. I didn’t run the entire race, there were points I had to slow down to a walk but I am proud of the fact that kept my goal in sight and finished strongly.
I’ve heard people speak of waiting to find their Boaz. For those who don’t know what I am talking about… Boaz is the Prince Charming who basically took Ruth from the Bible out of poverty and before that, allowed her to collect the excess crop left behind in the field). It is almost like the first Cinderella story. Maybe that is what sparked the Brothers Grimm’s imagination.
Anyways that’s not what I am getting into. I find Joseph, the man whose lineage resulted in Jesus being born within the tribe of Judah, more interesting. For those who don’t know Joseph happens to be a descendant of Boaz. Now Joseph is a man who demonstrated steadfastness and dependability. He also exhibited his devotion to God by taking on what many in today’s society would have termed a “jacket” although he was not rich. Despite this, he carried out his purpose without murmuring and showed his dedication to his wife, Mary, and his child by uprooting his life in Nazareth and moving all the way to Egypt when the child’s life is threatened.
There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. – Anais Nin